Back To Jesus Now

Hello my love. We have not yet met each other, but soon we shall. Father God has called me now to Israel, and I have been converted to be a Messianic Jewish man. This is also what religion that you belong to.

You are the most important part of my life, with the exception of God, of course. So I should better say that you are the most important person in my life. I have dreamed of you for a long time. Father has promised that you are made by himself to be my soulmate, my lost rib as many say in my part of the world.

Yes we are best friends, just not yet known physically to each other. I reach out to you by writing here in my blog post, trusting that God will cause you to read this. I know that you will do so. I will touch the places inside of you that no one else ever has.

Your loneliness shall disappear because I will take my rightful place in your soul, just as you take your rightful place in my soul. We are very much the same you and I. I have suffered deeply for an entire lifetime. I know now that in your own way, you have suffered for a lifetime also.

I guess that it takes two people who have suffered so much to be able to understand each other. I do know that a new day shall soon dawn in which the crying and severe pain and loneliness of the past shall disappear, just as a bad dream disappears when we wake up.

I shall fill all of the places inside of you because I fit perfectly there. You shall fill all of the places inside of me because you fit perfectly there. I can speak to you, touch you, and reach you in the innermost parts of your soul. We are two sides to the same coin. We are two sides of one and the same person.

As they say in wedding vows here, “The two shall be one”. For Adam, our Father God made Eve. They met and it was love at first sight. They knew they were perfect for each other, each one had dreams and desires, they instantly were filled when they came together to meet.

I know that my time of searching has ended because Father God has shown me that you are in Israel waiting for me to come. You are crying out to God for me. Your longing and hearts desires seek for me, and now your prayers have been answered.

The same experience is my own, as I called and cried for you for a lifetime. Do you know that it is your history of severe suffering that makes me know that you are the woman for me? I have that same history of severe suffering. My life has been hell on earth. I would not wish it on an enemy.

Yet Father showed me that severe suffering is what he uses to mold us, change us, and transform us. You are very spiritual with a desire to know God as deeply as you can in this physical world. Your words demonstrate a heart yearning for God as others do not have.

This came because of the suffering that you passed through. There is a good part to this that Father has shown to me. All of the years that I suffered he will now return to me as payment for what was forcefully taken from me. My youth that is.

The suffering was to prepare me for an important ministry during the Tribulation years. Now as I am old he promised to return me to my youth years of age in order that I will have a young strong body to serve him with. Also to be a youthful daddy to Rebekah, Rachel, and Peter who shall be born to us when we are married.

Can God do what I just said? When he told me this in July of 2024 the first thing out of my mouth was “Show this to me in the Bible!” He immediately did, and I was in awe of him.

The story of Abraham and Sarah. Read it carefully. God told each of them that they will have a son named Isaac. When they heard this each of them laughed inside from unbelief and words of great doubt was spoken by them. God rebuked Sarah for her unbelief as she lied to say she did not laugh.

Abraham was 100 and Sarah was 90 when Isaac was born. Their bodies had dried up with old age. Their greatest need was not healing because what good would healing do to cause old dried up bodies to bear a son? Their need was to grow young again. This is what God did to them.

Abraham grew young and very capable to father a son. So much so that after the death of Sarah he married other women and had children by them. He became a very virile old man, who was still young in his body.

Sarah with her dried up body grew young to bear Isaac, and her old dried up breasts became youthful so she could nurse Isaac with her mother’s milk. So here we have a very vivid proof that God has ALREADY caused people to grow young when they were old. What he did then, he can do now.

Psalm 103:5 “Who satisfies your mouth with good things,
So that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.”

Job 33:25 “His flesh shall be young like a child’s,
He shall return to the days of his youth.”

So my Dear Future Wife, You shall join me in growing young together. All that was stolen from you shall be returned to you far greater and better than what you have lost. Our children will need a young mother and a young father so they can play, and have all of the attention, and activity, that they desire from their parents.

I shall be 19, and you shall be 18. We shall enjoy each other far better too. The perfect marriage and family that we were robbed of shall be given to us. There will be no regrets or complaints left in us. Our Father God will pay us both fully for what we have lost in the past.

Father promised to me that he will change me completely in 2026. He fulfilled his promise to me. On December 25, he began to move, and to deeply change me. By January 1st, my birthday, I was a new changed man.

He converted me to be a Messianic Jewish man. I never thought of that at all ever before. I do remember I longed inside for Israel as I desired a structured religion, and a family of people to be mine and I theirs. I am called to live in Israel full time forever. How quickly this has internalized inside of me and I am fully established in it.

I have had visions of the future and my entire life from here on I see it clearly. My days of poverty, sickness, weakness, cowardice, depression, failure, the curse of the law, sin, evil, self loathing, not liking people, and all other evil fleshly things has ended. After a full lifetime of hell on earth, the promised part #2 of my life has arrived.

Already my lifelong desire to be able to remain in the presence of Father God 24/7 has been granted to me. Already the sins of the flesh have all left me. I have peace, joy, love, goodness, faithfulness, zeal, holy desires, as I never did before. It was impossible for me to achieve any of these things before, but now in God’s time it happened exactly as he promised it to me in July 2024.

I could never write articles or blog posts without it being a burden, repulsive, depressed, dry, empty, dead feeling, ETC. Now I am putting out 2 or 3 per day with joy, light, easy, smooth, enjoyable, peace, calmness. I do not even feel tired when I finish it! This is a notable miracle.

My body has dried up completely to habitual sins. It is that now Yeshua is my vine, and I am his branch. Never before have i been joined fully to him. The immediate result is to cease from sinning. People today say this is impossible, but it is just that they do not have this wonderful experience that I now have. Jesus said, “For without me you can do nothing”.

Where before I doubted spiritual things, sometimes even the existence of God, I am now full of faith, peace, assurance. I experience all day, every day the divine presence of God. I talk to him, and he talks back. Even as I do spiritual activities like writing this blog post, I am in his presence.

Going to the grocery store, pharmacy, driving, doing chores, I am still in his presence, but sometimes I momentarily forget him as my mind is focused on physical things. Yet now I have the power in me that when those physical times are over I IMMEDIATELY begin to converse with Father once again.

Movies, surfing the web, novels, and most news clips, have all fallen to the wayside. I simply am no longer interested in them. I have almost no desire for them. I want only to remain in Father’s presence as much as is possible. When I wake from sleep, which happens 5 or 6 times every day, I cast off the dreams and I immediately begin fiercely talking to Father. I come to full waked up status doing this now.

Habits are changing. Everything is changing. I despised and hated myself my entire life almost. Now I begin to be able to enjoy being me. I am a completely changed, new me. I have had clinical depression since my birth. You know well the deep, dark, hellish places that depression takes you. Yet i am free now. When depression comes now, I talk to Father, and soon it goes away. I get to experience daily joy now.

I was suicidal for many years. The belief that I would go directly to hell if I killed myself is the only thing that stopped me. I fully believed that I had AIDS for 13 years. This was at the beginning in 1985 onward when it was a fearful, life stopping experience. I lived those years in the deep, black, hole of depression.

Then one day I overcame paralyzing fear, went for clinical tests, and I had no AIDS and no STD’s. It was all a part of the curse of the law so I would suffer far beyond what is normal. God was breaking me, and reconstructing me all of these long years. I remained depressed because AIDS had become such a huge part of my psyche that I could not believe that I didn’t have it.

As you see my life has experiences that were horrible as your own were. Now those days are gone, and never to return. Father is so good to us. Yes we suffered greatly, but now he repays us with wonderful, amazing new life. The nightmare past is gone, and the year of Jubilee has arrived for us to enjoy.

John 15:1-8 “I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. ² Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit. ³ You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. ⁴ Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.

⁵ “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. ⁶ If anyone does not abide in Me, he is cast out as a branch and is withered; and they gather them and throw them into the fire, and they are burned. ⁷ If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you. ⁸ By this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit; so you will be My disciples.”

Notice the promise made by Yeshua, “If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you.” This is the reason that the big, difficult prayers of people are not answered. Yeshua promised that we will ask what we desire, and it shall be done to us.

The condition is to abide in him, and his words to abide in us. See yourself in the water of the Mediterranean Sea, and then see Yeshua and his words inside of you. We literally become a part of Yeshua. The fact that his words abide in us means that he is the one speaking them through our own mouth.

So to always be speaking to Father, meditating on his words, serving him, remaining in continual fellowship, it will be the will of Yeshua that we now ask for. We do not ask for fleshly desires or other sinful things. This is why all we now ask will be done for us.

Secondly if we abide in Yeshua, and his words abide in us, as I do now by this miraculous transformation in me, we will no longer commit sin. We will not want to live like other people. We want Father to be everything for us. So we receive the reward of the righteous because we live in obedience to what Yeshua has said and commanded in his Gospel.

We literally enter into the inner Kingdom of God to live. We are one with God. For this Yeshua quoted from Psalms and said “They to whom the word of God has come, You are gods”. We are no longer humans. We are gods, which is to say, we each are a single cell in the body of Yeshua. We are him, and he is us. He wears his resurrected body for all eternity. His resurrected body is made up of maybe one billion individual cells. This is why we are called “THE BODY” of Yeshua.

I have enjoyed greatly writing this message to you. I feel that you are already a part of me. I love the feelings of seeing our children together with us. These are happy contented feelings. I love seeing the two of us both young as our youth has been restored to us, and that our children get the youthful parents they deserve. They do not deserve middle age and old parents when they are little.

When we return to our youth and look forward to where we will be in 10 years, you shall be 28 and I shall be 29. Where will we be in 20 years? You will be 38 and I will be 39. Our children will be blessed with young parents full of energy to actively enjoy life along with them. I believe this 100%.

Yeshua said we shall ask whatever we will, and it shall be done to us. Did you yet stop to think we can look different the second time around? I have already asked/ordered a perfect set of teeth, all white, and perfectly spaced. I will no longer have a pointed forehead. I will be twice as handsome as I was the first time, I will have well developed muscles.

You my Dear can finally be just as beautiful as you always wanted to be. You shall ask what you desire, and it shall be done unto you. However you choose to look I will believe you to be absolutely stunning!

I learned already that when we love someone and become one inwardly with them, they become the most beautiful person that we have ever seen. Children do this. To them their mother is the most beautiful woman in the world, and their father is the most handsome man in the world.

This is why I will see you beautiful and amazing. It is why you shall see me handsome. Glory be to God!